Corin II 12: 9-10 , , , And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee; for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.”
During our Cancer crisis, I tried to be the rock. . . God was with me of course, or I would have crumbled like sand. I would alternate nights with Rich at the hospital and home with the girls, days at the hospital or days at school. I was on autopilot.
I remember clearly months later (when everything seemed to be sailing along smoothly) I walked into my principal’s office and said, “I am losing my mind!” I felt cold, weak, and completely empty. He wanted me to take time off to regroup. I felt I needed my class to find normalcy again. Angels were around me. . . I woke up one morning feeling this way. I know I was MIA for my sweet girls and Rich.) I prayed, I cried. Rich just put his arms around me saying, “I love you- we’re going to be okay!” . . . and about a month later, I woke up feeling strong, confident. The fog had lifted! Blessings abound!
Years later when the effects of Rich’s illness were taking a toll on his health again . . . my “Mr. Atlas” husband was discouraged–standing and walking across the livingroom was impossible. He needed much help for the simplest of tasks. He said, “The thing about this disease is that I feel so weak. . . like a newborn kitten! I need to be strong for you, for our girls, for my brothers! I put my arms around him and said, “I love you—we’re going to be okay!” Of course, Rich was made strong again as he lost his life here on earth.
Months later, I told Elder Dan the story and he said, “Oh Rich was one of the strongest men I ever knew. . . when you are weak in the flesh, you are made strong in faith!!” That he was! He ran the race of life with patience! . . . so be thankful for each day, for the good and the trials. . . you will be made stronger!